Back.

My phone camera saved my life.

Hey boo,


If you are reading this, that means I started to write again.

I lost count of so many sunsets since the last time I figured out what to write in every afternoon. No, just kidding.

Little updates from my not-interesting-but-okay life, I've passed my IS Development course last term and now I'm living my last year in uni. Time flies way too fast. It feels like yesterday I moved to my first boarding house and got sick like every two weeks because the food near the house was not that clean, I guess.

I've also finished my summer internship program in a tech company and it was an interesting experience to be in a tech team for the first time (I used to chose to be in the business team anyway)

And I've been away from my camera during the holiday so I got zero picture in my summer folder, that was no fun.

I also retook the MBTI test and I got a different result since the last time I took it before I go to uni. Does Fasilkom change my life? Really? And do you know there is a compatibility chart for every MBTI personality?

And I'm glad to hear some good news from my friends such as graduations, thesis-ing, got a new job, the first job, and many more. Happy but scared at the same time knowing that you are just a couple steps to adulthood. Crazy.

But after all, I'm back, darling.

XOXO,
Nay.


p.s. I guess this is the first time I missed my birthday post :(

I learn.

Bimbingan Belajar Gratis, Fasilkom UI 2017.

Dusting off my old drafts and found this. Betis 2019 is coming up and I feel like super old. Thank God for what I had in those past years, I could not be more grateful.

Preferensi.

The place is really nice. It has seasonal tea on the menu so I definitely will come back later.

Tak pernah menyalahkan penikmat senja,
membencinya,
menghujatnya.
Tak masalah
bagaimana caranya memandang senja;
dari jendela rumah,
puncak bukit,
atap gedung pencakar langit,
ataupun sebuah kedai berlantai satu
dengan jendela-jendela besar.

Tak pernah membenci pecinta kopi,
memusuhinya,
mengharamkan hal yang disukainya.
Tak masalah
bagaimana caranya menikmati kopi;
berdua,
sendirian bersama setumpuk laporan,
bersama sebuah buku kesukaan,
di sebuah kedai ternama,
ataupun warung kopi pinggir rel kereta.

Tapi aku membencimu,
sungguh membencimu,
karena memandangnya,
dari balik buku kesukaanmu,
di kedai tempat kita bertemu.


Pagi ini mendung.
Dari aku yang menulis kopi tapi bukan penikmat kopi.

Thick and Thin.

We all are in the middle of January already, but it feels weird if there is no new year post so here it is, it's never too late.

Sadness.

The saddest part of this year was knowing that your friend needed you and you were not there. All you wish is turn the time back to heal the pains but it's a waste of time. All you wanted to do was trying to help but you knew band-aid doesn't fix bullet holes.

Happiness.

The happiest part of this year was knowing that you are surrounded by those kind people. You have those people who help you when you are at worsts and smile at you bests. It's actually all the medicines you are in need.

Get rid of bad ideas.

I got slapped in the second half of the year, so hard. But thank God, I'm alive. And after–finally, I got some–those time to think for myself, I realized. If you ever thought the problem was about bad people around you, you're wrong. It was all about you from the first time. The way you look at people, the way you look at the problem, the way you think the problem in your mind, maybe you are in the wrong perspective so all you have to do is seeing with fresh eyes.


After all the smiles and tears, I'd love to thank you for everything that I've got last year.  Hard time was bad, but I feel relieved to finally can write this with a clear mind.
And for people around me, your existence in my life happens for a reason. Even though we don't know what it is, I'd like to say thank you.

All my love,
Nay.