Apology.

You taught me a secret language, I can't speak with anyone else.

It was an easy morning with almost no issues, so I sat back at my desk, and my lead came and randomly said,

“Saya habis ikut kajian Prof. N kemarin. Tahu gak? Ternyata poinnya bukan tentang memaafkan, tapi kalau meminta maaf, itu yang wajib…”

We may have a problem with forgiving. We all know how hard it is to forgive someone; the intrusive pain and the trauma still linger with us. 

And let me tell you the worst part:

Instead of receiving an apology, I got a "thank you" ‘cause they thought I was the one who gave them a lesson, and I couldn’t think how on earth they had the audacity to say that. Forgiving is never an option.

But that morning I realized, we all put too much focus on forgiving instead of making an apology.

Maybe we were hurting each other.

Then maybe we should start apologizing?

-Nay