Na-bi

Nevertheless, I still...

...can't deny.

Seeing your name popping up on my story viewers list, is definitely one thing I always wanted.

Damn it.

Cliche as it sounds, but here we are. Back at my prison of feelings that I've built myself. Stupid.

12.18 pm.

You weren't there. Your name.
Where have you've been? Busy with your 'butterflies" thingy? Or busy with someone else? Oh is it a person?

3.30 pm.

Definitely you are working on your weekend, aren't you?

But today, I'm all thinking and questioning, why the hell I'm so into you? Why can't I get over you? The feeling when I'm with you is all my heart wants. You are the definition of comfort as a person.

And now I realized, I like puzzles, mysteries, and you're definitely one of those.

You're the puzzle I couldn''t ever solved.

8.31pm.

A piece of my life-long puzzle. Here you are.

...

The new series Nevertheless, based on a webtoon story that I've read previously. My second korean drama series I've ever finished.

The others might find themselves in anger since the ending isn't realistic enough compared to the whole story that are so damn relatable and realistic. But in my desperate life and with my daydreaming hobby, I surely like the drama one, the alternate one.

'Cause the truth is, we sometimes that stupid, making the same mistake, choosing things that make ourselves hurting over and over again. We are Na-bi in our own story.

That's the reality.

Leave before you love me.

Forgive me I'm bad at creating titles.

Day 1

Gather around at 8.00 in the morning after months of not seeing each other in person. We headed to Bandung around 8.30 from Bono's house and make a stop at Ilmi's to pick up BBQ stuff.

After a thrilling driving experience by Ivan (I actually felt so so 'cause I can't drive lol), hungry zombies arrived at Bandung around 12. We directly went to Baso Enggal Malang for lunch.

Since our Villa is located on higher location in Bandung, so we bought some groceries at the supermarket in BIP.

After debating about how much Indomie we should buy, it was around 3 or 4, but we were allowed to check-in at 5 pm. So, we went to a cafe 20 minutes far from our Villa (but not that near tho) while waiting for the host to prepare the house.

After another thrilling driving experience since it has an uphill road along the way, we arrived at the super windy cafe called D'Pakar that I should take a Panadol and Antangin after.

We arrived at our Villa around 7 after ordering Nasi Goreng in Dago. The Villa is super nice, clean, and spacy enough for the six of us. It has 2 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, living room, kitchen, and backyard on the second floor.

Uh oh sorry Bono and Rehan.

These pictures couldn't describe more about how windy the weather was.

Day 2

Work, work, work, karaoke, cards, repeat.

And at night we went out to pick up Salvi at the train station but before that, we made a stop at the almighty Sei Sapi Lamalera because skipping it must be a sin.

Our love.

Day 3

Work, work, work.

Vira was taking a leave TO GIVE A DEDICATED TIME TAKING CARE ALL OF US AND PREPARING MEALS AND PREPARING OUR BBQ NIGHT lol Vir.

And yes, the BBQ time!

Nasi goreng campur campur for breakfast using the leftovers from yesterday.

Saikoro.

Day 4

Last day of our short staycation. Some of us got up early to buy some pricey-but-not-so-good porridges while I was still on the bed and woke up to found the Villa was almost empty (there was only me, Salvi, and Ilmi left)

We checked out around 10.30 after done a Lebaran-like photoshoot.

As we went out, we planned to go to Taman Hutan Raya but we wanted to make it challenging so we CHOSE one-minute-faster way through a small bumpy road--not forget to mention uphill roads--using an automatic car. We arrived at Tahura safely, thanks to our best driver, Rehan.

After walking around Tahura, we went to Cocorico to had lunch. And after that, we headed to the train station to drop Salvi off.

After saying goodbye to Salvi, we went to buy some pastries and brownies then we off to Gormeteria to taste their famous crepes cakes and took some not-fancy-but-ok photos.

Then, we drop Rehan off that wanted to extend one more night (with whom?!) in Bandung. And we headed back to Jakarta around 5.30 with 3 hours full of karaoke.

Lebar-an.

Tahura.

Forgot when was the last time I put so many words in a post and here it is. And Bandung is the only one that could said "Leave before you love me" 'cause if we stay one more minute then we are going to fall in love with it, yes?

-Nay

p.s. unedited pictures because mager

p.p.s. not all the pictures are mine, credit to friends!

Past.

Oh, please don't judge. I tried.

I have to admit, everyday we learn something new, even the small one, and at the end of the year, we'll look back how it was started then make a conclusion of a story and prepare for another one.

You will say, this year taught me so much. Every year. But the truth is, you are the one who grows and takes some lessons of everyday situation. You adapt to some new consequences, meet new people, face different problems, and learn from it. Because if you don't learn, take a point of it, the word "this year taught me so much" will never crossed your mind.

2020 may be as bad as someone cancel a plan in the last minute. Everyone had been swearing intensively ever since the first case was announced. I also felt so mad at my boring routines. But then I looked closer and realized, the only thing that made it looks bad, was my ego and stupid standard, that would never bring a joy or goodness for myself. I lack nothing. I've been feeling more complete than the last 7 years I wasn't home.

But last year's story isn't only about the pandemic. I'm talking about something that slipped away a long time ago, then it came back for saying hi, then went away forever. But this time was different since you've got the answer you've been searching all these time. It's an ease of mind anyway and also a sad truth, but it has to be done like that.

It really taught me that we could have a plan, but who are we really compared to God's plan?

Dark already.

Happy new year

2021.

-Nay