Past.

Oh, please don't judge. I tried.

I have to admit, everyday we learn something new, even the small one, and at the end of the year, we'll look back how it was started then make a conclusion of a story and prepare for another one.

You will say, this year taught me so much. Every year. But the truth is, you are the one who grows and takes some lessons of everyday situation. You adapt to some new consequences, meet new people, face different problems, and learn from it. Because if you don't learn, take a point of it, the word "this year taught me so much" will never crossed your mind.

2020 may be as bad as someone cancel a plan in the last minute. Everyone had been swearing intensively ever since the first case was announced. I also felt so mad at my boring routines. But then I looked closer and realized, the only thing that made it looks bad, was my ego and stupid standard, that would never bring a joy or goodness for myself. I lack nothing. I've been feeling more complete than the last 7 years I wasn't home.

But last year's story isn't only about the pandemic. I'm talking about something that slipped away a long time ago, then it came back for saying hi, then went away forever. But this time was different since you've got the answer you've been searching all these time. It's an ease of mind anyway and also a sad truth, but it has to be done like that.

It really taught me that we could have a plan, but who are we really compared to God's plan?

Dark already.

Happy new year

2021.

-Nay