July; Finding The Why

July, before it's too late

Couple weeks ago in one of an on site visit, had a conversation with my lead:

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Kamu tahun ini umur berapa sih?

(Mikir) 26 mas, sampai lupa umur sendiri kirain masih 25

Jangan lupa ya, yang penting harus happy

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Life is an endless journey of learning about yourself. It’s funny how you react to something just to end up searching for a scientifically acceptable reason why you did so. To an extent, an undiagnosed condition might lead to uncomfortable feelings that you think are normal, but they’re actually not. Years of masking may lead to losing yourself as you try to please others and seek perfection.

I am still learning and accepting that being fully human is not always about being happy; it’s about feeling everything. But to me, feeling everything can lead to a consequence that you have to understand how you cope and make everything reasonable and acceptable.

But some things are still unreasonable, and I'm still finding the why

25 was underrated, 26, please be nice

p.s don’t hesitate to seek for professional help, xoxo